I think this place of mine is becoming whiny and motherly-like. Euw kan. I am not a bubbly person that talk endless, but I love making people laugh. If not I would think I bore them.
Once the bf said I was so funny that I could qualify for Raja Lawak Astro. (not sure thats a compliment or a complaint)
Today I called and ask for follow ups about the offer letter. But the GTS Lady cakap she can't promise I'll be on board for training on Dec itself. Grrrr. I keep myself busy munching chocolates and drinking milk with loads of episodes of Californication to balance out this maternal instinct in me.
While mounting the Hershey's wrapper and gulping cold HL, at episode 7 season 1 I think, the moment they played Foo Fighter's - The Pretender I said,
'Ahhh that's it! Ni memang cerita I.'
for unemployed, friday is JUST like another day
don't talk about sunshine with me
Stop talking about silver-linings with me.
Stop being so positive, because you don't even hold my future.
Stop giving me hopes, you are not the one who suffers if everything fails.
ps I can always opt to getting married, and live under husband expenses, but I know I can never do that to myself. Just not that person.
pss I am worried that I cannot sleep. I cannot sleep. Tau tak dah berapa lama I tak pernah tak boleh tidur? Last time I was worried I cannot sleep must be the tunggu result UPSR. (Anxious nak exam and anticipated nak balik rumah sbb homesick doesn't count.)
come November, yet nothing change
2 reasons why Civil Engineering and Construction and I, hardly blend...
- I have terrible fear of heights. Meaning kalau kena lompat longkang, kat tebing tinggi angin kuat, jambatan gantung (!), my tummy akan buat exercise on its own (ops tapi bukan yoga, yoga itu murtad ;p )
- I do not like to be bathe in the sun. This radiant skin (bear with me please), which I gained through months and months of in-house-quarantine will turn their back one me after just 10 minutes under hot sun. Penniless I can manage, kusamness-I'll die of humiliation!
(Mana tau nnti ada future employee terbaca ni, bye-bye future job)
Other stuff going on is that, Fifa will be starting off work next month!!! Weeeeee!!!!
Dengar dia complain pasal EE (that's electrical eng) selama 5 tahun okay. Sekali buat Marketing, tapi takpe, she's easy-goer, sure can fit well punya.
Fa, jgn busy sangat sampai CHANGE.
Ok taknak fikir pasal kerja, this Sunday ada big date. Lama tak jumpa Bf, I need another strong word to describe rindu.
i used to quote that the biggest ship is friendship
I always stand on firm that relationship needs effort. You can expect someone to love you unconditionally, without you loving them as much as well. You can not expect one to remain head over heels for the rest of their loving life, with you looking adorable and pretty, idiotic-ly cute, loud and all initial reasons that made him love you.
You need effort. You have to give out something you may hate to give in. The trick is how to balance that, and make it look effortless to everyone else, hehe. (So you look cool and nampak chill always)
Guess what? I personally think the law applies to friendship as well. Expect the other friend will wait for your return after years, and expect us to be like we used to be? Expect that mere hours from years of absence shall erase the gaping distance?
I hope you get what I mean.
a desperate attempt of an unemployed
Just now, when I read Fifa's 'recommendation' to use my blogspot profile photo for my resume, I laughed kuat gila ter-annoyed Mama yang tengah layan drama Melayu TV3.
But then, I realized, that in fact, maybe that's the reason why I haven't heard from PETRONAS.
Maybe because my resume-photo is not 'captivating' and 'eye-catching' enough?
So I made a little decision. I akan replace gambar resume I dengan salah satu gambar di bawah...
CHOICE NO 1 - budak ni nampak selekeh, calon baik jadi engineer. civil.
CHOICE NO 2 - nampak macam people person, boleh jadi HR personnel.
CHOICE NO 3 - (kalau diorang baca blog I, they'll know...)
CHOICE 4 - susah gilaa nak dapat momentum senyum mcm ni, slalu either terlalu excited nampak semua baris gigi, or muka kerut garang macam katak. This one just nice, this image kena carry dalam resume kot?
In comparison with this! Buruk gila mengucap je lah.
Jangan risau, weight kat atas tu dah akan ditambah 4 kilo lagi. So tak nampak macam skinny cheese stick, yang maybe bagi perception ada physical barrier!
